Faith precedes the miracle

WOAH MAMA.

I feel like I have been on an emotional roller coaster with no seat belt the passed 5 months.

Ecstatic for falling in love and being sealed to the most dreamy man.

Devastated to find out his wonderland body had some unfortunate friends; cancer.

Thrilled that the odds of him beating it were so high.

Upset that through the chemo treatments there was literally NOTHING I could do to help my darlin' feel any better.

Relieved to realize we were done with treatments!

Stomped on, to find new growths after we were sure he was all done.

COMPLETELY GRATEFUL, that our Heavenly Father made sure those new growths were nothing to worry about.

We met with the urologist today. 

He gave us the results from the PET scan.

The growths aren't big enough to operate on, but not small enough to forget about and blow over.

He said it's possible that they are just "scars" from the chemo.

We are following doctors orders and getting scans every 3 months to make sure they don't grow.

If they do, surgery it is. 

Open surgery that will cut across specific nerves that will lower our chances of having kids to "if we're lucky".

If we're lucky, WHATEVER. WE ARE SO LUCKY.

As a matter of fact, I can't stop thinking about how lucky we are.

Naturally, we had to celebrate our divorce from cancer.

Besides Costa Vida being the most delicious, it was the only thing we had a gift card for so, duh, we ate there.

I had to buy a new candle to add to my collection.

It's name is relief. 

I mean how could I pass that up really?

I am so full of gratitude for the countless blessings we have been given. 

Heavenly Father is so very aware of who we are and what we need.

Miracles are happening everyday.